Therapy

I’ve been going to therapy on and off every since I was a kid. What for you might ask as a kid. Well one for my ADHD and two for the anger I had from home abuse. My parents were really bad together and alcoholic’s.

Eventually they separated and they both got away from alcohol. I did too when I got older. Because I found out I am an alcoholic too. But my point of this post is if you have somethings going on with you or happened too you. Don’t lock those emotions away.

Talk to someone. I’ve tried to keep those emotions in me before. Like the emotions I had when I found out my Dad killed himself by shooting himself in the head. I felt angry and mad. I was also very sad. Because although he was abusive when he was drinking. When he wasn’t he was an amazing father and I love you for that Dad. But when I found that out I kept those emotions in.

Then I started to drink heavy. But the emotions got so hard to handle. I also was dealing with my wife separating with me. Then 5 days after my dad passed my grandpa died. So at the time I really felt alone even though I had my kids. But my wife ended up coming back. She wanted to try to make our marriage work. But all those emotions I had buried. It just kept getting to me mentally.

It got so bad that I had put a gun to my head and was about to pull the trigger until I heard my son outside the room calling for me. Just thinking of that moment still gives me the chill’s. So after that moment. I knew I needed to talk to someone.

So I started to talk to a therapist. I ended up selling my gun. I’ve been sober from alcohol for years now. I also still go to therapy. All I’m trying to say is please don’t try to handle all your emotions by yourself. You will always have someone to talk to like friends and family.

If you don’t want to talk to them go see a therapist because it is worth it and I am 1000 percent positive that it saved my life. It also saved my kid’s the pain that I still deal with from my father’s action’s and I never want my kids to feel that pain.

If you ever feel suicidal please call 1-800-273-8255 or https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

So please use that number if you do feel suicidal and save your friends and family that pain.

Also seriously if you have a lot of things on your mind don’t just bottle it in. It’s not healthy and speak to someone. If you can afford a therapist. Talk to a friend a family member. Just find some sort of positive outlet.

Thank you for taking your time reading this.